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Don't you wish sometimes that going back in time were possible? I don't know, but sometimes just reminiscing with old friends is as close as you'd ever get. Today was a really busy day for me. I woke up not expecting to do anything at all, but instead I was out until just a little bit ago. I was on the bus with my friend Janet. We were trying to figure out the route to my work. Sadly, the route takes about 1 hour and 35 minutes total. Anyways. It was kinda funny. We were sitting on the bus and she forgot her phone on the bench. We started yelling for the driver to stop and he did. She ran back kind of embarrassed, but everyone was assuring her that it was alright, and we all make mistakes. Then this guy asked me what time it was. I looked at him and was like, "I'm sorry, did you just ask what time it was? It sounded like someone at the back." He replied with, "Yeah. Did you think it was the voice inside your brain?" We both sort of laughed at that and I told him the time. He got to talking to Janet and myself. After he got off, Janet gave me a look. "Was it just me... or was he totally eying you...?" "...what?! Me? No way. He was probably eying YOU." Janet looked dumbfounded. "Why do you say that?" "Guys don't eye me. Me? Haha, no." "...Sure they do. You just never notice."

This made me think. You never really know what people think about you. When we are younger, nothing matters. Someone's purple can be someone else's blue at such young ages. Our skin would still be the same color in the eyes of a child. Maybe I do miss a lot of things, but maybe that's because I WANT to miss them. I love the way I view the world. I love the romantic heart that I have, and I love the daydreams that I get caught in during the middle of a conversation. The world isn't as scary as it seems when you think about it as I do.

Later on that day, a piece of the very past that I wished to turn back just kind of... took me by surprise by making itself known. When I was in 7th grade, I had a friend named Rodney. He was a good friend, and one of the best during that time. We were in the same little clique, we sat with the same friends at lunch, we talked, and we always had something in common. We were the underdogs. He was picked on a lot, and I was too. Nothing serious ever came of us. We were in middle school. You know... those kids THINK they know what love is and stuff? That was me. He had asked me out one day and being the kids we were, we had broken up by the end of the day because he still wanted his ex. It was cute now that I look back on it. I remember standing there and just laughing, being all like "Okay, we're still friends, k?" And we were. He was on the bus today. I kept noticing he was looking at me. After a while, it dawned on me. "I know that scar... OMG that's Rodney!" So I sort of... slid down in my seat and Janet was like, "What's wrong?" I texted her and she started to bust up laughing. Rodney caught my glance once. I couldn't peel it away. I felt like I had been caught sneaking a soda into a movie from another place. "I used to go to school with you!" "...ehehe... yeah, I remember you...!" I tried to sound excited. I WAS excited, but I also wasn't. I hate when my past creeps up on me. He kept looking at me the ENTIRE freaking time we were on the bus, and made it a point to loudly state that he has a myspace.

Now. As much as I love the thought of turning back time... in this case, I think I'd decline the opportunity to do so. Why? I don't really know. I felt strange. I'm not exactly interested in the whole 'icking up again' thing. At least, not with him. It's weird, because usually I'd want to. But this time I'm just not feeling it. The fact that Janet teased me about him puppy dog eying me didn't help much. O.o

ANYWAYS! Hellboy II was a pretty good movie. It was so sad... but go see it. </random>